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*Sheltered*
I realize that on the outside I may appear different
But on the inside, I am just like all the others,
I have feelings too you know.
I see all the stares and quick glances that come my way when I'm in a crowd,
I hear all the questions, asking if I need assistance,
It's not that I don't appreciate them,
but please I am an independent girl.
I may need help from time to time,
but I'm not some paralyzed person who can't even feed herself soup.
I want to be treated normally,
could everyone please do that for me?
I hate getting attention from strangers,
and pity from kids that hardly know me.
Try to understand this,
making me feel alienated in public doesn't do me any good,
especially when I always compare myself to others,
and by doing that I know I'm not helping myself,
because afterwards I feel alienated all over, even on the inside.
I tend to feel like maybe, just maybe,
I'll never fit in.
Maybe I'll just never be normal.
I don't want that, I really and truly do not.
*Friendship*
Friendship; it's just one simple word,
but it's the people you share this special bond with,
that give it the greatest meaning ever.
Over the years I've gained many friends.
But being human, I've lost a few as well.
I gained many friends through school,
and as for my loss of friends, it was a number of things.
Some friends lied,
some stabbed me in my back,
some constantly fought with me,
some I lost just because I moved to a new town,
and some I lost just because we drifted apart, and we had no control over our situation.
Although I miss most of the friends I lost,
I want to thank the rest,
who have stayed by my side over the years,
through anything that ever happened, whether it be good or bad.
These girls are the ones who have never lied or gotten into a fight with me.
They share my interests.
They can tell my happy smile from the smile that I force myself to plaster on.
Sometimes, if I am upset,
they can figure out what the reason is, without me having to explain.
When I am sad they show that they care about me enough to sit and listen to me complain for as long as I need them to, and they don't interrupt once, not unless I ask.
When I am with them, I cannot keep my happiness inside.
That emptiness that is in my heart, fills up when I'm in the presence of these girls.
If I'm ever crying,
they cry with me and let me know that I can cry on their shoulder
if I feel I have to.
These girls are the ones who
threaten to kick the asses of the people who have ever hurt me.
That gesture alone, shows me how much they really do care.
These girls have done so much more for me,
and it's too much stuff to mention,
but to those few girl who have stayed true since day one,
I want them to know that through thick and thin,
We will always be tight,
and no matter what all our futures hold,
I will always love you!
~Tina DiCarli~
(c)2003
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